I am so blessed.

I have had an amazingly emotional and wonderful start of 2009. I keep telling myself, and sometimes freaking myself out about it, that I could not be more blessed. My life could not be any better.

I have been so blessed in these 29 years of life. I think to myself, if something awful happens, if I suddenly get a stroke of bad luck, remember the awesome life you have had!! God has blessed me with these amazing years that I have very little to complain about. I have three gorgeous, healthy, happy children. I get to stay at home with my kids, as my job! I have an awesome, very cute, very successful, very smart, and very loving husband. We have food, clothing and shelter, and some extra perks along the way. God has been so good.

Sometimes I feel guilty for what I can not control. I have friends who have been through some unbelievably difficult times in their lives. I wonder why I have not. I wonder why they have to. I wonder why there are so many awful things that happen in this world that we can not control. And sometimes, even though I try to stop it, I wonder when it will be my turn.

I've gotten a lot better, though. I sleep a lot better. I am calmer. I have more faith, more trust than ever. I've become a stronger, more peaceful, more comfortable, more confident person during the past year.

I frequently say that I have had the best nine months of my life. Since little Izzy was born, I have felt so incredibly whole. So content. Our family has flourished with love. We have grown. We have been blessed, blessed, blessed with BJ's new job and our move to Indianapolis. We have been blessed with wonderful families and friends whose support abounds.

Thanks.

I'm whole again!

I can breathe. I feel whole. I have a space bar! My life is complete. Funny thing is, I'm having to relearn how to use my thumb for the space bar. When it was broken, the only way you could get a space was by pushing this little button. The actual space bar was not on the computer. Since I couldn't push it with my thumb, I used my index finger. So now it's like trying to learn how to speak French when you haven't for five years: Everything is all mixed up!

But I do feel whole, able to blog, to write. My little Adri angel colored Sharpie all over her legs and arms today instead of napping. It was so precious. I guess I'd rather it be on her body than on the wall or the couch.

Today's been a great day. My parents had the kids for the weekend, and returned them late last night, bathed, jammied and sleeping - what's better than that? Today has been so fun. I can tell they really missed me. They are being so good and so am I. :) We are definitely having a great day. I wish every mom day could be like today.

This blog has no point, sorry, but I just need to get back on the horse. So, I'll post. And expect many, many more awesome posts from me in the near future. Who knew life with a space bar could be this good?!