I am so blessed.

I have had an amazingly emotional and wonderful start of 2009. I keep telling myself, and sometimes freaking myself out about it, that I could not be more blessed. My life could not be any better.

I have been so blessed in these 29 years of life. I think to myself, if something awful happens, if I suddenly get a stroke of bad luck, remember the awesome life you have had!! God has blessed me with these amazing years that I have very little to complain about. I have three gorgeous, healthy, happy children. I get to stay at home with my kids, as my job! I have an awesome, very cute, very successful, very smart, and very loving husband. We have food, clothing and shelter, and some extra perks along the way. God has been so good.

Sometimes I feel guilty for what I can not control. I have friends who have been through some unbelievably difficult times in their lives. I wonder why I have not. I wonder why they have to. I wonder why there are so many awful things that happen in this world that we can not control. And sometimes, even though I try to stop it, I wonder when it will be my turn.

I've gotten a lot better, though. I sleep a lot better. I am calmer. I have more faith, more trust than ever. I've become a stronger, more peaceful, more comfortable, more confident person during the past year.

I frequently say that I have had the best nine months of my life. Since little Izzy was born, I have felt so incredibly whole. So content. Our family has flourished with love. We have grown. We have been blessed, blessed, blessed with BJ's new job and our move to Indianapolis. We have been blessed with wonderful families and friends whose support abounds.

Thanks.