So, the guilt that I wrote about in the nap post is lingering. Here's how it goes. No matter what you do (I do, I'll speak for myself)...as a mother, I always feel that something could have been done better. Even, alas, in my blog posts I feel guilt. I always feel like I need to say, "Oh wait, but I do love my kids. I do love being a stay at home mom. I'm not crasy. I'm not a bad parent." Here's a blog to prove it!!
I love my kids! Let's face it, the "I'm going to lose my mind" blogs are fun to read. And they are true, and authentic, and written in the moment. And, they are therapeutic for me.
I would hope that of the handful of people who read this blog would know that I love my kids.
Okay. I love my kids. I love being a mom. I'm feeling better. Don't judge.
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You are an awesome mom! I feel the same way about teaching most days. THe only thing I've ever wanted to do with my life is teach. I love planning, makings things for my room, and I love watching kids discover things as we cook, read, play, and draw. Unfortunately, I leave everyday disappointed. My students do nothing but pick on or flat out deck each other and literally run around screaming and crying when they don't get what they want or when they are asked to accept a consequence for a behavior they so knowingly did even after being asked NICELY to stop or make a better choice at least 5 times.
Basically I ask myself multiple times a day if I really want to teach, which is a hard question for someone who truly feels it is my vocation. The thought usually makes me cry.
But at the end of the day, I really do like teaching, and I know my students (at least most of them) can't help it. I just can't figure out how to help them let go.
I love that you are honest in your blog - it makes you human! And I always think that seeing, experiencing and surviving the not-so-great parts of parenting, teaching, or life in general are exactly what make the good parts so good.
Much Love.
Steph
Oh, the things I have to look forward to. :) Chad went back to work today and I can safely say it's been one of the worst days of my life. Q didn't sleep last night. Or today. He wants to eat every hour and will scream bloody murder until he gets his way. And I'm only 15 days into motherhood! So I understand the guilt thing already because I feel like I'm not enjoying these precious first few weeks or giving him what he needs because I'm too busy being frustrated and tired.
Please tell me it gets better...
I love your blog. You are ripe for reality tv or maybe a book. Of course you love your kids. When Steph craps her pants thats kind of where I draw the line. I refuse to change her. Big fight last Tuesday about that. If you want adult interaction in the middle of the day I could come over for lunch once in awhile.
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